Baby steps

I've been really struggling this last week with my reading and memory; I just get the first sentence of "Mastery" memorized then start on the second one and then the two become intertwined and that's when the "self arguements" start. If it wasn't so frustrating it would be actually quite funny, but I'm in the struggle mode and it's a trudge at best; "For Christ sakes, it's two lines, how difficult can this be, to you can do this, then I shake my head and wonder who I'm talking to"!" Well if it isn't happening it isn't happening; I've taken several suggestions from writing it out daily to now reciting it with a voice recorder as I drive and when the opportunity presents itself to re-read the script when I can. For what ever reason I'm not retaining this right now, it will pass, sharing this last week took the knot out of my stomach and has made it a lot easier, soit won't be a run through as I'd like it to be, it will have to be baby steps for now. Robert.

Glad to be back

My work sometimes takes me out of town every now and again and his past month took me to a site where there was a huge job to be done; in the mountains, at and above the tree line, with no cell service or internet :( I put in 350 hours for the month of May and it took its toll by the time the work was completed. Initially I had figured it was an 8 week job, but I wasn't about to spend that amount of time away if I could help it. I dove into the work with a "torpedoes be damned" attitude and went as hard as possible to get the job finished. It was leave the hotel at 6, grab groceries, to the site, then back to my room at 10. When I'm on the road I try to avoid restaurant food as much as possible and in the 5 1/2 weeks I was gone I managed to eat in a restaurant only once. I carry with me an electric fry pan and an electric grill; I think I have become a master in mobile healthy cooking as I always gather a small crowd when I fire up the fixins'. As the job went on my Kung-fu started to suffer, I started to compensate the tiredness with over eating (something I always struggle with at the best of times), my temper started to get a little bit shorter each and every day, I started to have conversations and arguments with people who weren't there, but once I saw them again they would be in for a good going over and on and on.... Now that the job has finished it has taken a while to get back into my rhythm, sleep and eating habits and most importantly to restart my training. It's all starting to fall into place again from the fitness to the pushups and being able to be in a Lion Dance it has shown me where I'm at and need to rise up again to. Long story short, as I pull off my sweat soaked uniform, it feels good to be back, Robert.