Now for something a little different

I struggle with reading, I have little trouble with the comprehension of what I've just read but, I can read something, follow along with great interest, understanding and anticipation of what's next, then if there's any interruption or distraction, I have to start all over again as I can't refocus sometimes on where the heck I was. It's sometimes funny, tragic, frustrating, but at the same time, reading the same book a year later saves me a lot of money in the long run. Part of my I Ho Chuan goals is to volunteer at the Remand Centre; it does have its interesting moments and guests, but I'm there to lend a hand, carry my experiences, past and present and not try to pass judgement as that's not part of my journey. I found myself in the volunteer section one night and during visitation I was asked to read from a collectively agreed upon book and to read a few chapters from it. Well, off we went, me reading, them listening, and in the end it was a success; reading to a group of incarcerated men, some who can't read at all, me, self conscious about my nemesis and after the night went way beyond our allotted time, there was this moment somewhere along the drive home, the most calming and grateful, "whew", I've felt in a long while. Robert

Last weeks blog that never made it through

I had a severe case of the "fu** it's" this last little while and was wondering what it is all for, does anyone but us care, does anyone really notice, who are we really trying to impress with all these push ups and sit ups and on and on. When you're in that mindset there's not a lot of positive thoughts or actions that can come out of it and when you're in it sometimes it's hard to see the negativity you're feeding off of. Then, having that perfect moment and that perfect opening in your brain, I'm not sure of all the details (and my ego would take off with it if I did know, which for me wouldn't be good) it was mentioned that there was a someone that has been watching the push ups and the sit ups we do in class and it has inspired that person to get into their own fitness regimen as a result of  what they have seen in us. It was the jolt that I needed to get out of myself, to get refocused and practice what I have preached many times, "that this isn't for us, it's for someone who is attracted to what we do and wants to take part in the journey". It made sense, got me back on track and I didn't get into any trouble that I had to make amends for during this time of being lost (behind enemy lines) in my own mind. Robert.

Crunching time

This past two weeks has been cramming for everything; from a busy work schedule, trying as well to get in all my classes, yard work( tis the season), outstanding errands, vehicle repairs, reviewingmy curriculum, emergency call outs,    .......it seems when you get some control on one or complete a chore another one is staring you in the face. The past couple of weeks though it seems as if I'm flailing, trying to get an upper hand on at least one thing before I'm overwhelmed with the next. I guess it comes down to getting done what I can, when I can. There has been some great things that have happened this past while as well, but I'm off to class for the moment.