Enough

This was another week where I was out of town working from Sunday until Friday. I came to the point of "enough" as I found I wasn't treating myself very well on the balance front; my responsible eating habits went right out the window; you can have what ever you want with an expense account but there are only so many healthy choices one can have when you don't have the abilty to cook a proper meal and when you get into your hotel room late at night. You can have steak with all the fixins' every day but that gets old real fast if you think about it. Once back at the kwoon on Saturday I started resetting the damage; after Tai Chi, fitness and a swim with Sihings Krebs and Langner things started to fall back into place. Then I was back in my kitchen after a big grocery run and cooked a meal that my nutitional guru (Ms.Donahue) would have been proud of; even though I was waaaaayyyyyy late for "date night", it was well worth it. I'm not sure what road food does to a person but my knees were swollen for the week which made adapting to my work ergonomics difficult and the thoughts of "why am I doing this" kept me having a constant conversation with my self most days. On the meditation and prayer front, I found I wasn't grounded to be calm and collected in my thoughts and daily dealings with people; I let my work get the best of me as I came up against a problem that I had to have the factory engineers invloved in and their response was, "good luck, let us know what you find"! What initially started to be a single mechanical problem turned out to be 5 different repairs,then I managed to settle things down, but still, I found it hard to be efficient and kind to others when the garden hose sized vein in my forehead took me up to what seemed to be about three hat sizes and even though trying to take in a deep breaths when the barrage of salesmen, customers, mechanics, tech support staff and engineers were all taking turns at asking throughout the week as to how the job was going. I guess looking back over the week I let myself get too tired, ate poorly, I wasn't taking time throughout the day to reset and although these individually don't sound like much, all put together there were some frustrating moments. I'm not sure where work will take me this week, but looking back at the damage path, all I can say is "enough", take care of yourself a bit better. Robert.