Slowing down the pendulum swings

I too often "live in the moment", sometimes this can be a good thing, but most times like anything that can't be maintained, you don't get what you pay for or perhaps you don't understand the cost until later. Blogging I understand, should about the journey, but I've been reserved in how much I share; looking back at times in my life when the alligators have ripped off my ass and are ready to drag me under for the death roll, if you were to ask me how I am, I could give you a smile, a story, make you laugh, deep down some really shallow stuff, in all reality I'm not sure who I'm trying to (B.S.) convince, you or me. For instance, working out of town has its benefits, especially come payday as your take home pay is always more than doubled and who doesn't like that, but when you look at the "cost" of what it took, it's not really a great payday. Here's the catch; when I'm out of town my mind tells me this is great, do more, think of all the things you can do and have done with the extra money, the heck with everything else that stands in the way of  pounding in the hours. When I'm back home and back in training; "Hey, this is the real deal, forget about work, jump right in with both feet", then realize I'm in my all or nothing thinking here as well. At this stage of my life I want to travel and when I jump on my motorcycle, I envision heading off to the east coast, the Florida Keys, Panama, Alaska, when all I'm really doing is going for groceries. So this part of my journey is to finally face this nemesis that has plagued me for so long; "All or nothing", there will always be work; but how much is enough, there must be a plan at this stage of my training and is the plan real, does it have balance, trip destinations; they will always be there, but most important of all is I don't have to try to do everything at once, all right now and most of all  to stop trying to create an illusion that it's all good while thinking I'm impressing someone. Or, perhaps an old saying comes to mind, "What people think of you is none of your business". Time to move on, even though I've fallen slightly behind, get back to following the plan.
Push ups 1360 (8773)
Sit ups 925 (4705)
Sparring 25 min. (85)
gym 2
Forms 6 (73)
Horse Stance 2 min.
Walk/bike/hike 32 km (73 km)